Tuesday, April 20, 2010

The purpose of my writing, AKA, my mission statement

I married the love of my life back in September of 2009:) A month after getting married, my world turned upside down due to an illness that disabled me. My issue was that I had no idea what was causing me to feel this ill, and, therefore, was not aware of a solution. This only served to create many negative feelings for me, such as, confusion, anger, sadness, anxiety, guilt, and fear.

Over the course of several months, I received numerous inaccurate diagnoses, saw various doctors/specialists, and felt like I had every blood test ran that was humanly possible. Talk about exhausting! Finally, I was able to reach the correct diagnosis, and start proper treatment for Lyme disease.

Doctors prescribed antibiotics and supplements for my treatment. As I started and continued to follow the treatment plan, I found that I was feeling worse and worse, as time went on. The appearance of new symptoms and the progression of severity and duration of my old and new symptoms, proved to be unbearable for me. To put it lightly, I was not particularly fond of these new developments.

There is not a definite treatment or cure for Lyme’s due to lack of awareness, controversy, and variables with patients, doctors, and treatment plans; therefore, not providing me with a great deal of security about my prescribed treatment plan.

I decided I have two options. First option, I could choose to let this disease continue to control my life, and hope that my doctor’s treatment plan would someday help me. This puts all the responsibility of my recovery on my doctors and a treatment plan, which may or may not help me, making me feel uncomfortable. Okay. So, what is the second option? Second option, I could choose to accept the reality of the disease and my situation, figure what my options and resources are that I have available, and realize what I am able to do, along with my prescribed treatment plan by the doctors, to accelerate my recovery. I feel more comfortable with this option because I am taking responsibility in my recovery, and feel like my treatment plan is more complete.

The purpose of this blog is to document my journey during my recovery from this debilitating disease. I hope my blog is able to raise awareness about Lyme disease. In addition, I hope that my story is able to help other people that may be in a similar situation. I realize and understand what I have done that has helped in my recovery, and what has not helped my recovery. I understand this disease affects everybody differently, and what worked for me, may not work for you. I want to share my story and realizations with other people that may be in a similar situation. I hope my blog is able to spark some ideas, inspire and motivate others. At this point, it does not hurt to try, and you never know until you try, right?

This is my story with trying to face, understand, and deal with Lyme disease.


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